Altered

"If I love you, it's because in some way we are the same type of bastard"

One season of journal entries

Aug 13 • 

Carmen

77

8

May 2025

Update to meditation grief essay: 2 months later

Most of the effects have remained, and I'm having a great time

May 12 • 

Carmen

66

3

March 2025

The grief of losing your sense of self is like getting to Heaven and being upset they don't have your favorite flavor of La Croix

The old me has died and I miss her, but not that much

Mar 21 • 

Carmen

256

32

Competence is clarity

How do you know if you're good at something?

Mar 10 • 

Carmen

473

16

January 2025

Some reflections on journaling by hand every day for 8.5 years (and counting)

and on writing in general

Jan 30 • 

Carmen

217

18

December 2024

Mind viruses and demons are real

You're more programmable than you think

Dec 31, 2024 • 

Carmen

94

12

Find the fulcrum

A practice of understanding

Dec 15, 2024 • 

Carmen

54

4

Sincerity and manipulation

Dancing in the dark

Dec 3, 2024 • 

Carmen

91

2

November 2024

Collecting open secrets

What you call fate is quite ordinary

Nov 18, 2024 • 

Carmen

114

8

Nutrient Levels in Retail Grocery Stores, or Why You Should Be Buying Your Groceries from Walmart

A counterintuitive conclusion

Nov 4, 2024 • 

Carmen

72

14

August 2024

People who demand nothing of you (or, notes on charismatic people)

How charisma feels

Aug 1, 2024 • 

Carmen

11,214

155

July 2022

limerence with ideas

Youthful obsessions and searching for wholeness

Jul 25, 2022 • 

Carmen

69

8